giving it all
And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross.
Philippians 2: 8
The heart of the very first Christmas on earth was sacrifice. Unlike many other Christmases, this year’s season of celebration though joyful as it may be comes with a strong reminder: To live a life with readiness to suffer and endure hardships in order that others may have life just as Jesus did.
safe
This is what went through my head on Saturday night at 2ish am
after a brief moment of nervous unsurity and a frightening ride home.
“ I feel at home whenever you're around, I feel so secure, so safe and sound.”
two hours is more than enough time for me to decide where I really want to be.
{edit}
that line is actually from Melissa Polinar's Meant to Be. Dah sah i listen to it
too much. tsk tsk. anyways, the words are beautiful so i thought i'd share.
Here you go:
slowly stars go out each night
dark meets light, kiss the sun goodnight
new day comes as though life's just begun
you're now mine
and everytime you hold my hand
there's an understanding of who i am
new life is born, unlike before i'm now yours
you can feel it in the summer breeze
tonight, the world's at ease
chorus:
you are the one for me
after all the waiting i can finally breathe
earth and sky say what they may
i will love you all throughout my days
happiness happens when our hearts combine
when its you i'm with i come alive
its just so clear to see
darling, we are meant to be
your love is like amazing grace
sound so sweet i can almost taste
i've been given more
than what i could ever ask for, i am yours
i can feel it in the summer breeze
tonight, the world's at ease
bridge:
i feel at home whenever you're around
i feel so secure, so safe and sound
what else can i say? what else can i say?
renewed gratitude
There‘s a whole list of photos waiting to be posted up here. Mostly about my trip to Melbourne,
but before I do any pixel exhibition, there’s something else I’d like to write about my trip down under.
A few weeks before leaving, andrew’s grandfather passed away, and it got me thinking on and on about how
blessed I am to have not one or two but four grandparents still alive and healthy and so at the funeral, I vowed
to appreciate this trip more than ever, {we were going for my sister’s graduation, all four grandparents, parents,
a cousin and me.} Of course, how ironic it all had to be that the trip with the company I had intended to value and
treasure more so than my previous trips turn out to be one that irritated me quite a fair bit. Well, not all the time,
but I found myself getting easily agitated and annoyed at little bitty things that usually would have just slipped
along fine. here and there again, I caught myself letting impatience get the better of me and chided myself for
being so selfish but those were regretfully few.
I felt somewhat edgy and uncomfortable with the whole situation (must have been the Holy Spirit’s working)
though I don’t think anyone else knew what went through my mind all the way from KLIA back home. I think they
all thought I was sleeping. Hence this blog post. I need to say what was on my mind in that 75 ish minutes of driving
from the airport.
I was selfish.
And all I had seen throughout the trip was other people’s weakness, their incapability. What I had not seen was
their kindness, their love, their care and their patience. And so, Im writing this with a renewed sense of gratitude for
my family. most people i know only realize how much they value their family when they live on their on. thankfully
i don't need to wait that long to realize what a great thing i have going on in my life right now.
{*} I am thankful for my dad, who is beyond generous and has such a huge heart
for others. And for being so strong on the first day even though he fainted during the flight.
{*} I am thankful for my mum, who in all her grace, bears with all complains, whining,
harsh words and impatience with such dignity. And for waking up each morning to cook us breakfast.
{*} I am thankful for my sister, who did countless and endless things for us
(and for me especially) during the trip without complaining.
{*} I am thankful for my Popo, who is thinks about everyone’s health and safety before hers.
She is really like a doraemon as in anything you might possibly need, she has in her pouch.
And who is so skillful in hiding a blade in her handbag that not even security could detect it.
{I only found out at the end of the trip, how genius is my grandmother?}
{*} I am thankful for my Gong-gong who supplies us with countless jokes during dinner and
lightens up the atmosphere.
{*} I am thankful for my Mama who worries about us all the time.
And for making an effort to walk long distances despite her hurting knee.
{*} I am thankful for my Ye-ye who is the peacemaker amongst everyone.
And for teaching me and my sister all those words in Chinese and for the
laughter he provided for us with his self learnt English words. And also for showing
me that after many years of marriage, his love for my grandmother is still that strong.
{*} I am thankful for my brother {who wasn’t there at the trip} coz his absence
made me realize the need for a young strong man on every vacation.
{*} And that’s why im also thankful for my cousin, who somewhat replaced my brother in
his ability to help carry heavy loads, help take pictures of me, translate Chinese
conversations and laugh along with my silly antics.
AND. A hugger gratitude towards GOD, who is so capable of loving me despite my shortcomings.
Psalms 8:4 Who is man that you are mindful of him? The son of man that you care for him?
{ EDITED! }
i forgot to also mention that im thankful for my JIGGLER JENN, who so patiencely help translate
and layaned my grandparents, and lent me her tweezers, and shared my joy over small little
things like lighted up mirrors and lip gloss. wished you came along with us on the great ocean
road & wished i went along with you to that factory outlet sale!
my very first
oooh hoo! my very first thingie {cant find that exact word for this kinda things coz im bad at words like that.}
and look! a very lengthy word post without pictures.
7 Known Things About You
1. i love taking pictures.
2. i am very CINA. Sometimes.
3. I am somewhat naïve and blur and very easily conned.
4. I laugh a lot.
5. Im cute? {I only used this coz that what 92% of what people wrote on my Friendster testimonial board.}
6. I like being with people.
7. i don’t spell very good. Nor count.
7 Lesser Known Things About You
1. I can fall asleep anywhere. Anytime.
2. I liek the font georgia only on pt8
3. I don’t really enjoy listening to the music that my bf band plays {not that its not nice i just prefer other types of music}
but I’d go to his gigs anyways to watch him. Though I haven’t been to any before {such a bad gf!} Don’t count the one long
time ago coz we weren’t together yet. =P
4. I worry a lot about poor/disabled/blind/deaf people.
5. I love malaysia and I hate it when people plan to leave this country for a “better life”.
6. I need people to take care of me.
7. i like reading Revelations.
7 Wishes
1. Canon 1D Mark II + all the nice lenses to go with it.
2. that I could go swimming now. & play captain ball this Sunday.
3. That my room would have more natural light.
4. For my grandparent’s salvation.
5. That I would miraculously have a 20/20 vision by tomorrow morning.
6. That I would be able more transparent.
7. That I wasn’t so afraid.
7 Things You Like About Yourself
1. my hair
2. my calfs. Though I used to get lotsa teasing about them in school, I still feel proud of them.
I know I know, imma girl. Should have slender legs. Ballet tendus and releves paved the way for them.
{AND AND AND prashanth and nick chin actually wanted to trade in their calfs for mine k.}
3. That I am quite manja in the family
4. My toenails.
5. That I love dancing.
6. My ability to laugh at things.
7. That I can amuse myself with silly conversations in my head.
7 Things You Dont Like About Yourself
1. my nose. mehs.
2. I am too sensitive.
3. That I cannot speak chinese.
4. my height
5. My lack of commitment to a certain thing.
6. My time management!
7. My inability to stop biting my fingernails.
7 Things On Your Mind Right Now
1. Applying to Uni’s in UK. Jon just gave me a Studying in UK 101 briefing.
2. I should be sleeping coz I have tons to do tomorrow.
3. Why did God make guys and girls the way He made us?
4. Quite the stressful lar.
5. That mamak guy in a random mamak shop we went to few weeks ago called Red Chair who was in charge of
cooking the char kuay teow, satay, taufu bakar and get tissues, forks & spoons AND SERVER all at once. I wonder
where he came from. And how did he get there and how is his life right now and how much they pay him?
and whether or not someone will come along one day and share with him about Jesus.
6. i should learn to write more
7. I wish I was nicer to people in school.
7 Things You Hope To Accomplish Soon
1. Signing up for dance classes.
2. All the things I wrote down in that “things to do list” notepad file sitting on my desktop.
3. Learn to cook that wine chicken dish
4. sew my own tutu skirt & spray paint my t shirt.
5. To get a job soon!
6. Build my own website.
7. Buy a minolta film camera.
cawan teh.
Taken two weeks back on our trip to genting. Slow shutter speed, spinning tea cups, flash & giddy faces all over.
They were the best shots on the trip me thinks. We didint have mr sun shining on us that day, which i though we would
have hence the shorts & satin top wearing {totally backfired}. i braved cold wind on my legs, but not the solero shot.
im too chicken. haha.
still. malaysia should upgrade their themeparks more.
Jessica looking at jessica looking at jessica looking at jessica. tee hee.
thats bryan & vera in the beginning. then bryan getting all wooozy some minutes later.
gary was right when he told me four years ago. i DO look like a hamster. le sigh.
starting to write in white again. im mad but im not. i'm afraid but i shouldnt be.
our communication needs some working on. i need to remind myself. love is long suffering. and so i promise i will try.
promise. coz i love you. :]
sleeping in & old things
Decided to make full use of the sunlight today. Bought that necklace about a year ago and wore it once or twice.
It fits better as a headband you know. anyways, trinkets always photograph quite nicely. i found some adorable &
touching wedding cinematic videos by papercrane productions shooo nice! help yourselfs! ouhs and jessica,
i promise i'll upload genting pichas next. P-R-O-M-I-S-E! real one!
{edit}
ouhs. i just saw this video circulating on facebook/youtube/twitter. Jayesslee {two korean girls} covering one of
my fav. songs officially missing you. at first, it didn't seem all that nice. but the more i listen to them, the more im
loving it. hahah just thought i'd share it with you. click hereAND I like the song at the end of the video too. lols.
tell me, why i can’t i dream of nicer things?
This is the 4th dream/nightmare ive had in a span of two weeks about snakes and other creepy animals. Ewww. I dreamt they tied us up and put us in tanks with snakes {oh the horror!} and bugs and wiggle things. i neaaarly died. Then we escaped but they found us and told us we were being pranked. Heelllllo. I felt so angry. Even when I was asleep. And I woke up feeling angry. Grrrr. on the same note, yesterday i dreamt i was eating a hugee salty fishball, and as i was about to bite into it, my mum called. and i woke up. shish. :/ now im craving salty fishballs.
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