THIS IS MY HEART THINKING

Wise words from two very wise men of God:

“ The person that does God’s will for their life is the most fulfilled and satisfied person.” Ps. David
“Are we aware that the life God put in us is a divine life which cannot exist but through Him?”  Ps. Eldos


In the light of deciding what I want to make of my life ahead of me.
Over the last couple of weeks, God has once again cemented His reassurance
in me through these words.I might not know what the future holds, but I know who holds my future.


your life is a continuous series of transitions.

Transitions. Change. New realities. Adapting.

Recent events lately had me seeing things in new light. and making me realized how much I’ve been holding on to what was and expecting the new realities to remain the same as they were. the biggest changes are always concerning the people around me. The people I love. But even people change. Situations changes, things happen that are out of our control. People move on, people go their separate ways. and what remains the same?Only God. He is the same yesterday today and forever. And God is so timely. He really knows our hearts. 2 dreams, group discussion on friday, one sermon, a passage in the bible is more than enough to realized what He’s been trying to tell me.

Eccl 3:1
To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven.

And in verse 11, it’s a comfort to read these words.
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.” If there is one thing at all I’ve learnt in the past year, is to know and trust that everything He does, He does for a reason. And that all that He does (whether it might seem good or bad at that time) is for me to get closer to Him.

Changes come painfully sometimes. heartaches and all that. But what are those in the light of eternity? 2 Cor 4:17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. Phil 3:13-14 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.


Hello good morning how you do?

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John 10:27
My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.


John 12:24
Most assuredly I say to you,unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it reminds alone.but if it does it produces much grain.


John 12: 45
And He who sees Me sees Him who sent me. I have come as a light into the world, that whoever believes in Me should not abide in darkness.


John 13: 34
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.


John 14:15
If you love me, keep my commandments.


John 14: 27
Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you, not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let it not be afraid.

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Things I wanna give thanks for:

1. Simone lil Facebook message. <3
2. Caryn & her prayer
3. Liz, who out of the blue and out of her generous heart bought me this pretty spring scarf.
4. Hui Ye cooking dinner for me, and bringing all kinda of junk food over to teman me.
5. Alce, Mia, Jacqueline and Jerrica’s individual messages to me. All filled with love.
6. Mikaylie and her mature response to being corrected and her whatsapp message.
7. Reading little notes from appreciation night.
8. God putting different people in different points of the week, to affirm what He wanted to say to me.
9. Closure, and strength to do what He wants me to do.
10. His word. His word that never ceased to speak into our hearts.


Sudden relief

Got stuck in the tube, on a Monday morning of what seems like a never ending week from the previous weeks of 9-12ams in london. It really goes against every instinct you have to stand still and not do anything. In those moments, His words came – through the list of memory verses we have been reminding ourselves with.


John 16:23
These things I have spoken to you, that in me You may have peace.
in this world, you will face tribulations,but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.


Never experience such a strong sense of peace before. it’s was a reassurance from Daddy God.
The Word of God definitely is alive and living. Just 4 days before God kept re-emphasizing the same theme through:


1) Mikaylie singing in the living room just before bible study: “thank you Lord, I just wanna thank you Lord.”
Definitely felt His presence so tangible all the way up from my room.
2) bible study : Phil 4
Rejoicing in God always! Despite what the circumstance may be. Submitting to God in prayer. That peace that transcends all understanding.

3) the amazing time we had during Friday fellowship. It was extra special, having everyone in the room shout out something to be thankful for, sharing and encouraging one another in prayer and seeing people spend intimate moments with God in their own way.

3) Songs on Sunday : Waiting on Him, You are the peace that guards my heart.

4) consciously choosing not to worry! Matthew 26. And God providing the solution when I released the control I’ve to Him.


O God! You are great! In times like this, heart is bursting to sing out to You!


jiwangs

 

just cause we are going for his concert tomorrow night and im here 1am in the morning practising some chinese singing. finally decided to lookup the translation. boi. chinese words are pretty romantic i tell you. so is malay. thats why they invented the word jiwang. hahah :)

WANG LEE HOM [ FOREVER LOVE]
I love you not only because of your beauty
I love you more and more,
your every eye contact touches my heart
because you let me see forever
and then I understand myself


Please treasure the days that are about to come
When you’re loving me, I know it’s painful and unfair
I know you really love me, and this is not an easy decision…
I can feel your breath next to my ears as magical as breeze passing by
You softly comfort me when I’m feeling down
So everyday I want to cherish and study your smile.
Oh, how natural this is


Forever love


The only thoughts in my mind
is that I will spend my lifetime loving you
From now on, you’ll be the very reason of my happiness
Love is the most beautiful and longest journey
There will be rain and mud preventing us from traveling forth
But I can feel you in my arms as warm as sunlight
You magically melt down my sorrow
and it is unbelievable and this is the reason why I love you


its time to let go, and let God


Ecc 3:1-8
To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:

2 A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill,
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones,
And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
8 A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war,
And a time of peace.


Vs 11 : He has made everything beautiful in its time.


Dear God, help me to live my life, in submission to your time, to your purpose.
in every season, allow my heart and mind to be sensitive to what you are planning and doing.


out of the blue

 

saw a friend post a picture of an aerial shot of Winter Wonderland over Hyde Park. Just looking at that picture made me suddenly wanna burst into tears at the thought of not being able to celebrate Christmas here in London anymore this year.oh dear.

on one hand,. i am really looking forward to moving on. going back to Malaysia. back to home. on the other hand… ohmai ohmai ohmai 3 years worth of living in this place. its gonna be hard to say bye.